My chest has two trails of bruises falling down it; one on the left, one on the right. I couldn't wash all of the blood off of my toe, and my wrists are still a little sore from being tied together for about 4 hours. It wasn't a perfect night, but it was a good night. I cared about absolutely nothing, and yet was perfectly satisfied. Both of those things are rare.
That was Saturday. On Sunday I blew off homework and went to March Fourth's 10th anniversary show and it was amazing. During the last song I couldn't even dance anymore, I was just spazming from excitement. I was glad I hadn't invited S because I would have felt silly doing that in front of him. It was very primal.
Now it's just the push till spring break.
Tuesday, March 5, 2013
Magical Sadness Cure
My sociology professor didn't like my paper. Fair, neither did I. He said it was difficult to understand because it wasn't well written. Yeup, true. Still feels shitty.
But, I'd like to take this sad-feelings opportunity to share with the internet in a not-facebook kind of way the one website that always cheers me up:
http://www.formspring.me/wolfhaley
Yeup, Tyler the Creator's formspring. It's just enough feelings+fuckeverything to make anything seem manageable as a linear combination of those two things. Now, to do physics. And maybe email my prof about redoing the paper.
But, I'd like to take this sad-feelings opportunity to share with the internet in a not-facebook kind of way the one website that always cheers me up:
http://www.formspring.me/wolfhaley
Yeup, Tyler the Creator's formspring. It's just enough feelings+fuckeverything to make anything seem manageable as a linear combination of those two things. Now, to do physics. And maybe email my prof about redoing the paper.
Sunday, March 3, 2013
The fix.
There is only one solution right now and it is to be eating ramen naked in my bed.
I am good typer durnk bluggoing for the win. Aren't you glad I allowed myself editing bribledges for the first sentance. You know don't even. HOwly shit I am really out of it.
I am good typer durnk bluggoing for the win. Aren't you glad I allowed myself editing bribledges for the first sentance. You know don't even. HOwly shit I am really out of it.
Saturday, March 2, 2013
Trust
I love talking to strangers, because I feel like you can tell them anything. Their judgement means nothing, but their perspective can be powerful. I guess that's why I like writing my secrets on the internet. But I'm missing the eye contact.
And I have a caffeine headache.
I'm stuck in the moment.
I want to look harder for Trust. Honesty Couch is as close as I get. Physically intimate situation can become psychically intimate with a little luck. Just push two couches together and lay down. Maybe try fro some eye contact.
Ow my head.
Friday, March 1, 2013
Misleading Title
My heart just starts beating really fast and I get all confused and flustered and I want to kiss him.
Never give anyone power! No power for anyone! Except you. Keep all of the power.
It was more exciting when I wanted to care about him. I don't think that I can handle being jerked around like this anymore.
Anyways, back to the happy shit, Fetish Ball and then party in the French House basement which means darkness and intimacy and goddamn I really need to get laid.
Also, note the clever use of a picture taken of me in Madrid to make you think this post would be reflective or something. Nope. I couldn't bare to outright lie to you though, so I left out the misleading title. Or did I?
This is way too complicated and I have way too many feelings and lots of my friends are in Seattle for a debate tournament so this weekend is gonna be super weird. I should just watch TV and fall asleep.
Also I was looking at facebook and found this picture that I am also really into. You know, just putting them up so that a thousand years from now I will look back and grin at the thought of my youth.
Wooo my life.
Why Religious Critiques of Science Bum Me Out
They bum me out a lot. Why?
Because they create a false dichotomy of religion vs. science, for starters. I can understand that people who need to push the 5,000 year old earth story will need to undermine science to have any validity at all. But plenty of people with perfectly reasonable beliefs still try to strengthen them by diminishing the value and trustworthiness of science. It seems like this can only come from some kind of questioned faith, which makes me uncomfortable. If you do not believe what you believe regardless of science, then the next step down is to believe it by spiting science. It's not that I begrudge these people their spiritual journey, but this coping mechanism is deeply disturbing to me.
In some ways, that critique could seem a little bit meta. But the reason this insecurity makes me uncomfortable is that I feel by arguing with them I'm simply exacerbating the problem, and not being constructive in any way. Also, I am suspicious people who react to things that make them uncomfortable by arguing that those things are completely invalid. Then again, the KKK has ideas that make me uncomfortable and I definitely believe that they are completely invalid. This road goes two ways, and I'm sure scientific critiques of religion bum people out too. The only defense I have to this is that I don't think scientific critiques are applicable to religion until religion tries to take on a scientific perspective voluntarily.
Anyways.
My most specific problem is in a particular rhetorical strategy. The thing that kills me the most is when people reference the changing views of science. They say because some discoveries have been corrected, any fact could be wrong. If the word "unscientific" comes up then I really lose it. To change your beliefs based on new data is the most scientific way of doing things. Even Einstein had trouble with new models of atomic structure. To be able to think critically and warp your mind around weird phenomena based on either experiments or math is entirely scientific. Adherence to old beliefs because you were brought up with faith in them is where science is held back. I feel like someone famous said that new ideas don't take over, the people who believed the old ones just die.
So, yeah, it bums me out.
Because they create a false dichotomy of religion vs. science, for starters. I can understand that people who need to push the 5,000 year old earth story will need to undermine science to have any validity at all. But plenty of people with perfectly reasonable beliefs still try to strengthen them by diminishing the value and trustworthiness of science. It seems like this can only come from some kind of questioned faith, which makes me uncomfortable. If you do not believe what you believe regardless of science, then the next step down is to believe it by spiting science. It's not that I begrudge these people their spiritual journey, but this coping mechanism is deeply disturbing to me.
In some ways, that critique could seem a little bit meta. But the reason this insecurity makes me uncomfortable is that I feel by arguing with them I'm simply exacerbating the problem, and not being constructive in any way. Also, I am suspicious people who react to things that make them uncomfortable by arguing that those things are completely invalid. Then again, the KKK has ideas that make me uncomfortable and I definitely believe that they are completely invalid. This road goes two ways, and I'm sure scientific critiques of religion bum people out too. The only defense I have to this is that I don't think scientific critiques are applicable to religion until religion tries to take on a scientific perspective voluntarily.
Anyways.
My most specific problem is in a particular rhetorical strategy. The thing that kills me the most is when people reference the changing views of science. They say because some discoveries have been corrected, any fact could be wrong. If the word "unscientific" comes up then I really lose it. To change your beliefs based on new data is the most scientific way of doing things. Even Einstein had trouble with new models of atomic structure. To be able to think critically and warp your mind around weird phenomena based on either experiments or math is entirely scientific. Adherence to old beliefs because you were brought up with faith in them is where science is held back. I feel like someone famous said that new ideas don't take over, the people who believed the old ones just die.
So, yeah, it bums me out.
Bedrock-a-bye baby
Spinning round
In my bed
Sun goes down
flowers grow
Plant my mind
petal shaped
In the ground
on my own
Happy motherfucking finally weekendflavored days.
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